Monday, December 28, 2009

Newer Year - its now 10's rather than 0#'s

I haven't been up to date with my blog - all thanks to the ton of work I miraculously finished 2 weeks ago. All that fatigue on my mind. I feel rejuvenated a bit after this week hit, for the first time since August. It's incredible how much work I put myself in my last year in college. Here I thought the last year would be more cruise mode - but its more of a hustlin' hustlin' work style. Still, even with all the stress I felt this semester I keep the month of May in my mind. That'll be the most beautiful of all days, when I finally get to worry about a job instead of writing mandatory papers for a grade, or read 3 to 4 300 paged books for a history class. Lucky me!

As for the new year coming - 2010. I'm going to miss saying, "o5," "08." I mean we've all been saying it for the past 9 years. When will be the next time when it starts back in the 00's? Like 990 years from now. LOL

So I've been chosen to be on this Gamer Spotlight on Xbox Live as well, last week. It has been a hectic week for me to be honest, and I wasn't even online for most of the time my profile was on display! Everyday I get 100s of random friend requests, 100s of messages I have to reply to. So this is what a community manager feels like, eh? I think I could handle if the task was given to me again, but I don't know. Most of the messages I received were childish, immature, rude, racist. I knew the community was full of douchebags anyhow, just didn't realize the disease of douchedfluenza was constant 24/7. Still, I simply brushed off the "douchey" messages and managed to meet some other native gamers from out east, in Cali, New Mexico of course, and Oklahoma.

Despite all the busyness in my xbox live inbox, I enjoyed my time on the spotlight, seeing my profile on the dashboard. It was sort of surreal to be honest. I mean everyone in the world could see it, at least the geek part of the world. From Aussie to Tokyo, my profile was seen by many eyes last week. You could basically say I put natives on the map! ... for gaming. LOL

And not to sound conceded, but the description they inputted beside my profile stressed my goal to reteach the Lakota language to children - and Avatar was out that time too. Fitting wouldn't you say?

Thanks for reading - have a Happy New Year everyone! Wish I was in dance club to celebrate the new year, know what I mean? (listening to this) :)

Monday, November 23, 2009

Oh why

Why aren't people dancing? Dance dance dance! (LOL)

Saturday, November 21, 2009

What brilliance amongst the dude community (and girl gamers)

After having heard so many immature ramblings online, its obvious those players aren't fit for life at all - can you say socially awkward? ("Hee hee!") The mockery is verbatim at its worst, hearing the same threat over and over again of how noobish people's skills are as if the next world conflict would be resolved through controllers and thumb sticks. So what if people suck, there's a place for competitive gaming out there. In fact there are many places to go that promote professional gaming (ex. Major League Gaming?). Why don't they travel their incompetent ass over there and test their skills with other professionals - and leave the recreational gamers alone? I guess they're TOO stupid to even look. (my goodness)

On the other hand, while playing Halo/Gears of War/Modern Warfare 2 online, I happened to run into a few girl gamers out there and had fun interacting with them, acted like a gentlemen and wished them the best after playing. Still, can you smell the social stink coming?

Yes, other dudes (or I should say douche) inevitably insult the girl gamers online, along with "aggressive flirting," like that'll work. Obviously you can tell they haven't interacted with any girls, or actually seen them frankly. LOL (Me or other gamers usually tell those girls to mute the voice feed of that player - but still its funny to hear their tremendous stupidity even though we're all ignoring them completely)

I found this list of the top 10 things girls hear on xbox live. I thought it was amusing.

So word to the wise - the Xbox Live public community is not for Mature people, it is for utterly stupid. Note - PUBLIC. Try not to speak to random players. It'll definitely ruin your buzz.

Here's an interesting video of young to teenaged gamers that talk some serious trash (a glimpse into the dude community) HILARIOUS ending

and a marriage proposal??? LOL (kinda felt sorry afterwards to be honest)

Hope you enjoyed the videos as much as I did. ^_^

I've heard worse than the videos presented. You wouldn't want to hear what people actually say in the lobbies - not saying that its more original or brilliant. The remarks will simply kill your personality, and for me personally, my sexual drive. ...seriously. Too much of that isn't healthy.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Oh Halo 3

How you hold so many fond memories. As I played you, I remember the moments that brought time to a stand still, moments that brought joy and laughter, even moments that were evidently frustrating, but still magnificent and memorable nonetheless. You were everywhere with me, from the beginning when I bought you at midnight waiting out in the cold in that long line of people, to my travels across the country, even at places I never dreamed of, and of course in my home. Your music... oh my goodness, your music brings amounts of sweet, sweet romantic emotions. Your dreamy conception of how our universe will be 500 years from now. Even with all the warfare brought on by the Covenant fleet, there still is beauty amongst all the violence raging along the front lines of battle, the fight for humanity's existence. I never felt so captivated by your side. And here you are... still with me along side. I had never played a video game like you that brought so much attention. You are like a box full of memories - something like nostalgia... something that will live on forever.

(really nerdy I know, but I always wanted to express how I felt about the whole game and story)

Saturday, November 7, 2009


Nothing has come to my mind recently all thanks to mid-terms and 30 pages of papers finished and finalized altogether. I think something is knocked loose in my brain during all the typing thinking about subjects so far apart from each other time realm wise. Wasn't it suppose to continue my thirst for knowledge? Or maybe 30 pages may have been too much. Not sure exactly, but that's what my all my classes demanded during midterms, and then some.

But one thing I always had on my mind stuck in the back of my head was... storytelling. How it effects us mentally and as a whole. During my time writing the daunting 30 pages, I've always switched my thinking to something else once I finish a paper. Something other than real history, transitioning onto my favorite story - Halo.

I have always been a avid reader of all the novels, reiterate what I might've missed, what mystery lies ahead for the characters, a forgotten history. The Halo Universe is more or less a unique struggle between races of beings. It's not just brutal warfare between the Covenant race and Humanity. So much detail has been put into this entire story its hard for me to grasp the story most of the time. From the Precursors to the Forerunners, along with the Flood army, I am always intrigued whenever the people at Bungie and 343 Industries pull something new out of their collection.

Such stories as this simply makes my mind flutter away from all the stress, my therapy so to speak during my own struggles to continue my cognitive faculties afloat, my train of thought, my muse, or however you want to say thinking. (lol)

I have also been reading the Qu'ran a lot lately, trying my very best to discipline myself in doing so, hopefully on my way in becoming Muslim. However, I am not ready to fully convert into the religion and its practices since I still have vices I need to let go of. Man is that going to be hard, but on the other hand... it'll be good for me.

And lastly, I thought I bring up some nerdy news relating to the world of video games.

I just recently purchased Borderlands earlier this week. My thoughts? *long pause*.....simply blew my mind away! All the money's worth ($65.00) In fact it's a bargain based on how much content this game has. They say it has over "87 Bazillion Guns" in the game. I believe that ^_^ So far I've collected over 400 weapons, and my collection continues to build. And the Claptrap robot? I still can't get over how amusing that robot is. Expect a blog entry whenever I complete the game.

Other gaming news, Infinity Ward removed Party Chat from Modern Warfare 2. Now I don't quite seem to comprehend this shitty move they did. IW says its to stop "cheating"? Personally I use party chat a lot and speak with my fellow online friendo's, but removing this just for the sake of competitiveness? And also putting in the completely new ability to kill innocent people during the single player campaign? Who the fuck does that?

I can see it now... a douche bag or 12 year old having a blast killing innocent men and woman. Fucking genius move Infinity Ward.

Therefore, I have reconsidered in buying the new Call of Duty. Renting is always an option! haha

What else?

Well, I am into this song at the moment.

And this...

AND this... my all time favorite mind you. I could listen to this song all day!

Friday, October 16, 2009

A future head

Lately I've been asked... what's in store for the future? What might we do to remedy the situation? And what are the alternatives and options? Of course, I'm referring to my fluent language (Lakota). To be honest, I don't know what's going to happen in the near future really. But still, we must continue our efforts to re-teach the language in schools and colleges as they're doing right now. Continually keep the young Lakota people inspired to learn it, speak it, and maybe one day understand it. I know that a friend of mine is trying his very best right now learning ways to structure sentences in Lakota. My friend even greets me with occasional "hello's," and "how are you doing?" in the Lakota language. To me, that is incredibly comforting hearing the language from a young individual like himself. Not that I'm implying old people are getting "old" to hear, but it is simply refreshing, so to speak. Of course, I reply back with a word and test him to see what he has learned. It's funny, sometimes when he doesn't know, he goes on replying, "Taku? Washicuya yo!" -> (What? English please!)

Still, thinking about it abroad makes me wonder aimlessly i.e. no real grounded idea really comes to my mind. All I've ever been thinking about are immersion camps, a separate school built on by a rewarded grant, but where can I get the help? This Lakota elder and I keep debating whether to build an immersion school, or an immersion camp. But first we've spoken on getting current fluent speakers together to start this process. The idea is still ongoing.

Now, in case you may have been wondering, how did the language situation come about in the first place?

To me, it was the impoverished conditions on the Pine Ridge and Rosebud reservation. My fellow Lakota people tend to neglect tradition and rely mostly on jobs keeping the household intact. Their were some Catholic religion influence in their as well, with missionaries presenting the religion to the Lakota people, somewhat a safe haven for the depressed communities. I guess the word of God was more comforting than Wakan takan's spiritual guidance. I've grown up in a catholic family, going to Sunday services, so it was sort of unfortunate for my family to have learned a whole new way of life and having to learn the Lakota ways again after realizing the imported religion wasn't for them. But no harm, no foul.

As for the alcohol problem - this problem is actually universal amongst tribes in the country unfortunately. It's just a lot worser here in the Pine Ridge reservation. Do I need to really mention it? Ugh, yes ...White Clay, Nebraska...

Through this, domestic violence occurs, suicides, and with people drowning themselves in alcohol to forget the impoverished lifestyle they live in because of how easy it is to get alcohol. Harsh, yes. In fact, VERY harsh to even be speaking about it, but the word must go out there. Like to know more? Visit the Facebook group to learn more about the White Clay initiative.

Also, sports. This may have been another cause for young individuals to overlook traditional ways and instead look upon the sport of Basketball to learn their true character. Basketball is raved about in our reservations, with aspirations to win state title. My friend, and also the founder of Indian Country Today (Tim Giago), also realized what the problem may be. Basketball. He wrote an article about it -> here. In it, he also speaks about "traditional districts" as well, meaning communities that are isolated from mainstream influence (it's all in the article). As for basketball, we hold a huge event for the sport every winter called the Lakota Nation Invitational (LNI). It grew into a more broad event later on - with other sports included, and even educational events, but still the main event is Basketball.

I hate to open my big mouth, but what the hell?

After all the shenanigans happen about whenever the huge pride deteriorates, those athletic individuals usually end up having no jobs after high school, nor do they end up going college. Why? Because that's all they've done, play basketball. It's REALLY harsh to say these things yes, but they're true nonetheless based on first hand experience. The question is when are they ever going to learn? Reason I'm emphasizing this problem is I've seen my friends end up in the gutter... and they were better leaders than me truthfully. Almost every week I try and inspire them to educate themselves, and I try and have them learn the importance of keeping tradition. Fortunately enough, many of the athletes I knew are doing their part, participating in ceremonies and singing at pow wow's. Now if only we get rid of White Clay, I say the future would look A LOT brighter than it is today for the Lakota people on the Pine Ridge reservation. Their are young native individuals who do go college of course, and I don't mean to neglect any of them.

Yes, as for me, I feel very fortunate (and lucky) to have been taught the language and be able to speak and understand it. Not very many young individuals have the native tongue, and some days I find that rather sad. But as always, I use my sadness as a way of inspiring my ideas to re-teach it; to either children, teenagers, even adults. I wouldn't mind teaching children first though. To me, they're still learning the English language as it is, why not teach them another language while they're at it? :)

Overall, this situation is a huge challenge, but I don't care. I want to see my Lakota people speak it like they use to during the traditional days. Sure, I get the argument that "its written down." Yeah? What're you implying? That non-fluent speakers are able to re-teach it? Their are some ancient words only fluent speakers know. Without them, the language is going to sound off key.

So to conclude this rather harsh and ranted blog (LOL), every delicate situation like this is never pretty. You just simply have to pull your trousers up, look fate in the eye, and remain diligent and strong.

Oh... and thanks for reading. ^_^

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Random Listeners

Sometimes I don't get what people really mean when they say they listen to whatever that's on their library. Or, whatever mood they're in determines what they listen to. To me, it's almost as if these "random-shuffle" listeners aren't really in control of their music tastes, counting on what's in store. Like a surprise!

That's cool and junk, but I don't dig randomness in my headphones. I HAVE to know what I'm going to play. As my friend said one day while on our drive to Wal-Mart, "if you want shuffle, you're going to get a random ass playlist... punk here, electronic there, some hip hop... you gotta have some control duder." So we ended up choosing Electronic and Dance.

But that's for us broad music listeners, having over 10 different genre's in our iPod. You strictly Rock and Metal? Shuffle might just work for you, but as said before, I don't go with the random approach to my music. I get so cranky if the genre and sound changes so suddenly, and believe me, I tried getting use to shuffle. Going from Funk to World music? WTF (even if it is my own music, quick transitions really does change the mood)

Current favorites? Zuco 103! (2 of my favorite songs)

LOVE'n this live performance. ^_^